a little bit everything, much in nothing

I signed up an account in a web called school-inside, sort of same thing compared with facebook, wow...since several month before, there's always some friend asked me if i had a school-inside account , the answer ofcourse is no, cause i felt that thing was boring, i didn't wanna waste me time on that, well, as my curious, i signed up an account this afternoon, and checked it out after work, you know what, i saw so many ex-classmates there,no matter in high school, junior high or even primary school. it feels so good to see them, it's like flash back, somehow like i saw them on campus again, wow~so moved to see them. i also saw so many schoolmates there, i was thinking... why i hadn't known the nearly 1000 schoolmates before i graduated...
I sent Candace a mail whom works at service stop, cause some problem with my universty entrance results, i didn't put it in a sealed envelop...when iwas typing her the e-mail, i suddenly felt like i dreamt this situation when i was in Beijing. Cause i slightly remembered i had that horrible dream that i left that results at home, and the university were going to delete my file...oh my god~~~
have u guys ever experienced that sometimes u suddenly feels like missing something, someplace, some friends, even some pieces of music...

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What should I write about? I am no idea again....Oh! I can talk about fast food!Since I started to working in a fast food store, I have tried to tell my every friend that do not eat fast food. If you see the whole process of how a burger is made, you probably will hate fast food extremely. Almost everything is made under a quite high temperature, like frying fries, and cooking patties on a very hot grill. The process is very fast. Therefore you can see how unhealthy it is....Besides, employees in my store, they rarely eat what they made...Everyone knows that fast food can cause heart diseases, but people still keep eating it. Some fast foods taste good, but really think abou your health. Are they worth enough to risk yourslef on having health problems in the future?

eminem...rapper...man....father

Here is the lyrics of mockingbird, i love this song, unlike most of the rap, some of eminem's songs shows his love also his appology to his family, i like eminem, cause his songs are different with other raperss. i can feel love in his songs, like this one, i have its video link on the right side of this blog, it's a live, when i watched it at first time, i heard his voice shaking, i was really moved then. like what Helen typed in her blog, everyone has his or her difficulties, so as eminem, although he's a superstar, so what? what could be more imporant than family?

Eminem - Mockingbird

Yeah
I know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right now
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What you crying about?
You got me

Hailie I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad
Well I'm gone but I'm trying to give you the life that I never had
I can see you're sad, even when you smile, even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry
Cuz you're scared, I ain't there?
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more crying, wipe them tears
Daddy's here, no more nightmares
We gon' pull together through it, we gon' do it
Laney uncles crazy, aint he?
Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins, when it swirls
When it whirls, when it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Lookin' puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusing you
Daddy's always on the move, mamma's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems
The harder that I try to do that, the more it backfires on me
All the things growing up his daddy that he had to see
Daddy don't want you to see but you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way, your mother and me
But things have gotten so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be when we was teenagers
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control
over and that's what destiny is
But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream

Now hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upperlip up little lady, i told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But i promise momma's gon' be alright

It's funny
I remember back one year when daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
And stuck 'em under the tree and said some of 'em were from me
Cuz daddy couldn't buy 'em
I'll never forget that Christmas I sat up the whole night crying
Cuz daddy felt like a bum, see daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broke into and robbed
Or shot up on the block and your mom was saving money for you in a jar
Tryna start a piggy bank for you so you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars till someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your momma's heart
And it seemed like everything was just startin' to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguin' a lot so momma moved back
On the Chalmers in the flat one bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 Mile on Novara
And that's when daddy went to California with his CD and met Dr. Dre
And flew you and momma out to see me
But daddy had to work, you and momma had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the T.V. and momma didn't like it
And you and Laney were to young to understand it
Papa was a rollin' stone, momma developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I'm sittin in this empty house, just reminiscing
Lookin' at your baby pictures, it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown,
it's almost like you're sisters now
Wow, guess you pretty much are and daddy's still here
Laney I'm talkin' to you too, daddy's still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It's got a ring to it don't it?
Shh, momma's only gone for the moment

Now hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upperlip up little lady, i told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But i promise momma's gon' be alright

And if you ask me too
Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird
I'mma give you the world
I'mma buy a diamond ring for you
I'mma sing for you
I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
I'mma break that birdies neck
I'd go back to the jewler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat don't fuck with dad (haha)

ही तेरे

Well,i have been here for almost 2 months,i have met a great deal of people here.And knew some of them ,most of them are really nice,they are quite mature,especially Lana,she's great,she knows a lot in everything i felt,i like her,i do,i feel that she's like a great sister,she's the one who i admire in this class ,seriously,haha.I think they know what they should do here,that's great,as so,i think we could provide a really competitive environment,which could force us to keep moving,keep strengthen our english handleabily.And i think all of my classmates are ready to make friends with each other,right,guys?awesome...i like that,although there's many students i haven't talked with yet,but i will.To be honest i'm really poor or maybe awkward in communicate with people who i know little about them,i'm changing though.I like making friends,although there's always a hardtime for me to start a friendship... Regina,hi,Regina,(like every morning you came to our class and said hi) you know what am i thinking?i guess it must be so lucky to be your kids,I assume that you must be a great mum,and i think you are good at telling story to your son every night,cause your voice is so soft,it sounds like a piece of music on another level,haha...ok,how many words here?i think that's enough...no way, i'm kidding though,i think these words are a little bit informal,aren't they?Come on~ it's the first time for me to write this much in english and blog on the internet,all i need is encouragement.Clap...